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December 2nd, 2009
09:14 pm - 2/12/09
Im aching everywhere but feeling pretty good strangely enough. (:
I think breaking = gives me good mood. Well, when i bboy well la at least. Yesterday training first time i go training in like 2 months and BAM 3v3 battles. Shag as fuck but lucky still can tahan. Threw the kitchen sink at felix LOL.
I think I need to pia more rounds and train stamina alr... I cant even do one set properly now do a few swipes then like going to die liao. Nabei.
TODAY I LANDED MY FIRST BTWIST! (((:
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December 1st, 2009
12:18 pm - 1/12/09
Today is 1st dec 2009.
Never thought this day would finally come. HAHA.
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November 27th, 2009
12:29 am - 27/11/09
There just comes a time when you wonder
why the fuck are you doing what you do?
( one of my rare rants )
And shaowee gives me hope. Maybe tough love works after all. waddup bro.
Like, 1.2% of the time.
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November 22nd, 2009
01:14 pm - 22/11/09
Haha damn im starting to wonder if there really is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.
To 'speak with perfect candour', I don't think As have been going well for me. Mediocre performances at best, and yea Econs will probably be fucked bad.
Hopefully I have just enough for me to get into a course I want in uni. And there are alternative routes I suppose. But I really don't want to lead a life where I cant decide shit for myself. I wanna lead my own life you know. Do things that I find meaningful, not force myself to find meaning in things which I'm doing.
Well there's still Lit and CSC left. Strange thing is im sort of in the holiday mood alr. Like, I woke up at 11+ today? Don't normally wake up so late unless its a holiday...
Well, to be fair, I guess it wont ever be a real holiday for me until I manage to start breaking. Heh. 1 week + to the deadline.
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November 17th, 2009
08:25 pm - 17/11/09
14 more days till the self-imposed deadline is finally up.
Then i can finally break without troubles again. For the first time since a very very long while... Been looking forward to it, training my heart to love breaking so i can come back stronger and fresher; and now it is one of the only things pushing me on.
Tomorrow is CSC and Econs. Wonder if I can make it out alive. And my bro's shouting and screaming is pissing me off again. How the fuck to study at home lol...
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November 11th, 2009
01:43 pm - 11/11/09
This video right here is a _!_ to anyone out there who reads self-help books and shit to try to improve their life, whining bout how crappy their life is, whatever.
No need to think so much. JUST GET SOME BALLS!
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November 6th, 2009
08:58 pm - 6/11/09
so nice of tag to make me smth :D
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November 5th, 2009
05:47 pm - 5/11/09
Lucky As are coming soon, I might go crazy at this rate. Totally sian and _!_ at all my notes and all the shit already. Worst part is I still don't really feel prepared, but I just don't feel like studying anymore. lol.
Damn my blog is becoming some rant place. but isn't this the point of blogs anyways?
Anyways, instead of mugging, I was reading reviews of Dragon Age: Origins, newest RPG by my fav RPG team Bioware. The reviews are friggin ridiculous, you get like a score 9.5/10 from Gamespot. So I was reading, then being bored as I was, I decided to look through like jobs in the gaming industry for writers. It's quite different from what I set out to do (media studies etc etc), but I've always liked writing (used to do fanfictions and novels even, but that was a hell of a long time ago >_<) and I think being part of a Dungeons and Dragons development team like Bioware will be quite the experience. Haha. LIKE CRAFTING OUT A FUCKIN EPIC MAN!
Ahh, the dreams of a random fanboy. Not like the gaming industry in S'pore supports these type of games anw. Or these type of jobs. Heh. Artists and game designers are in high demand though.
OK so bottom line is... Im determined to land a job i'll thoroughly enjoy doing :D Goes along with my mantra of leading life the way I want to lead it. Heh. Fuck lawyers and doctors (i remember saying this last year). There are way too many of them in this world! HAHA.
WHAT YOU KNOW BOUT THAT HUH? Lol. Ok ima play this after As.
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November 3rd, 2009
10:37 pm - 3/11/09
LOL its quite funny watching my parents talk to each other on msn (bet your parents dont do that :P)
The english they use is quite funny lor. Like damn formal with each other like that. "I shall blablabla..." And the most epic part was my dad telling my mum over msn "today the moon is very round. payday again". I just LOLed.
And no emoticons one lor, so its like deadpan. Hahaha.
Ok damn lame and sian from mugging. As start next week. YAY!
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November 1st, 2009
08:50 pm - 1/11/09
hahaha its 1st november...
and im starting to see things that i won't/couldn't see before. Heh i guess its all about perception...
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October 25th, 2009
07:10 pm - 25/10/09
Thanks for all the hugs! :D
cept that it's slightly gay cuz its all guys hugging me, but im cool with that i guess heh.
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October 20th, 2009
05:05 pm - 20/10/09
Been more than a week since my 18th birthday, and nothing feels different heh. I think maybe I'm past the stage where birthdays actually matter to me. Actually I can't remember the last time i really gave much of a shit about my birthday haha it's more of the company that matters (:
May be a tad late here, but thanks for all the wishes and presents and what not. Haha.
I've been feeling quite under the weather lately. My eyes have been teary and sticky of late, and I've got snot trickling down from my nose every now and then: definitely not a glam sight. Sometimes I'll just sneeze like, 5 times at a go or something like that. Got a roll of toilet paper beside me when I study at home... That's how bad it is.
Wanted to send my contact lenses for servicing today cuz its been screwing with my eyeballs lately, but lo and behold, the friggin place is under renovation till 28 October. As if being permanently slightly sick wasn't enough. Wanted to go polyclinic to set things right but when i got there at 420pm it's closed already. Sigh.
It's like the whole world is against me man. LOL. Ok maybe that's a slight exaggeration but suffice to say nothing has been going well for me.
As ending in 42 days. I see no point counting down to the START of As when it is much more encouraging (ok not really) to count down to the END of As. lol. Mugging has been bullshit. I'm gonna screw my As. WOOHOOO....
And i wanna break. haha. But thing is when i actually do break i feel so uninspired. what's wrong with me haha... >_<
Maybe I need a hug. lol.
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October 10th, 2009
06:56 pm - 10/10/09
It's not over tonight A10 restaurant city fans unite! says:
k
you are a dog.
omg
you are a dog turning 18 in 2 days' time
wtf?
that's the true mark of a dog.
nace...
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October 9th, 2009
03:55 pm - 9/10/09
FUCK I JUST REALISED I CANT EMBED VIDS BY HITMANBREAKEROFTHEYE.
Nvm...
Shoutouts to that nigga up there (hitmanbreakeroftheye). Keeping it mad fresh, keeping it real... Like, even though he isn't breaking, when you watch his vids, you can really feel the soul man; you can SEE the rhythm of the music coursing through his entire being. Hitting those beats, coming up with those fresh moves... It ain't easy.
Gotta give respect when respect is due. Screw breaking; hitmanoftheye, you are my new inspiration. Peace.
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October 6th, 2009
04:47 pm - 6/10/09
fuck man prelims are going to the dogs. So far all the papers i've taken back have been shit.
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September 27th, 2009
08:42 pm - 27/9/09
I remember last year around this time, in spite of promos, me and a few others have already set our sights on beating our seniors. The seniors too... "you guys better smoke us come the end of year". So we trained damn hard.
Haha they said each batch is going to up the level, so that HC breaking will continue to improve and reach greater heights. That was supposed to be the way.
This year is going to be different.
My batch is not going to let that happen.
So catch us if you can. Our goal is to come back next year and smoke you guys left right and center.
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September 26th, 2009
12:30 pm - 26/9/09
I love my crew but I'm wack. -sq
Haha how true.
I still want to be a pillar of I&I. Ill push myself on not just for myself, but for the sake of my crew too.
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September 13th, 2009
07:44 pm - 13/9/09
IBE looks friggin dope.
I remember when I was in pri/secondary school my dream was to cover the Fifa World Cup as a correspondent for the Newpaper. LOL. Ok damn weird I know. But my dream right now, is to be able to go IBE one day with my crew. Its like, a 3 day hiphop festival held in a CITY? Like wtf hahaha. And the programme list is just dope. You got discussion panels about breaking, you got workshops by Kenswift Kmel and other legends, you got footwork and trick battles... And of course ALL BATTLES ALL.
Shit man lol. One day we'll fly there to Holland for the IBE. When we got the cash. If I had one chance to fly overseas with my crew, IBE would be the place to be.
The only thing I can think about now is to break everyday after As. Like seriously, go espy and chiong all out. There are tons of moves I wanna try, and so many tricks I wanna get. Even if NS enlistment is in January, I'm still going to enjoy breaking for that one month I have. Of course, gonna hang out and chill with everyone and stuff, but there is no question about my top priority, no question.
And we still got that crew outing overseas in the works... Hope it actually materializes man! Its either thailand hk or taiwan; either way its gonna be dope.
After As man. After those goddamn papers.
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September 7th, 2009
05:51 pm - 7/09/09
STEP IT UP IV was a dope jam. Better than most jams I've been to this year (not to say that there are that many jams in S'pore). There was so much positive vibes in the jam, like everyone was just chilling and having fun and repping hard; that's what breaking is supposed to be man. No hating. All love and peace.
If we didn't have prelims/As I swear we would be up there in the battles repping. But nah thats not the case. So we gotta settle for repping in cyphers. Haha gah we all deproved man! Cept for sworn AKA shaowee who was repping the hardest that afternoon. But other than that I guess we are all outta practice. Not to mention tired; 6 hours of writing before the jam was no joke! Rawr, gotta train back those moves after As!
And get shaowee to teach us the shizz he learnt at Bounce's workshop. Shit man Bounce was mad at the jam. Just went down in a cypher 2 MINUTES STRAIGHT and didnt repeat a single move (Now let that statement sink in). All i can say is that thats just mad dope. He aint MZK and Boogie Bratz for nothing... Some of the stuff he said in between the battles were really deep too. Like how we should just let loose and embrace the whole positivity of jams like these. Hope he'll be coming down for many years to come I wanna go his workshop and learn more!
Anyway MAD SHOUTOUTS to Inertia crew for organising this dope jam, RF for winning the jam (going all out for R16!), and all the crews out there repping to the best of their abilities. Man, loving the local scene so much now.... PEACE!
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August 28th, 2009
10:02 pm - 28/8/09
They say mind over matter.
But sometimes it really is a case of the mind and soul being willing, but the body being unable to comply...
I realize I'm going to be 18 in a few month's time. OK slightly more than 1.5 months time. Am I getting old? Nah not really im in the prime of my youth at the moment.
But why this fatigue and sickly feel...?
I used to pride myself on the strength that breaking gave me. But now that we're unable to train consistently anymore I feel as if im degenerating. The clean moves, the feel of the music, the powers and tricks, so strong just months ago, have now been seeping away from me. Even the muscles built over the course of training have started to slowly give way. I can FEEL myself weakening. I am not the same person i was 3 months ago.
This is some suckass feeling. And we all tell ourselves that we'll train hard after As, but that is a good 2-2.5 months later. And then there's the dreaded NS. I can understand why Koreans say that NS will ruin a bboy's life. I can see it coming: getting owned in training, not enough energy to even practice, losing all our skills... Once you're out of NS you're kinda screwed. Actually, come to think of it, once we're out of As, we're kinda screwed too. Don't need wait till NS.
I know I should be studying now, but, really, I don't want to see everything I've, WE'VE worked so hard for to just come crumbling down on us because of circumstances we can't control. We didn't climb so high to fall that height. Breaking is one of the few things that still matter to me right now.
Now I wonder whether I have the right to wear the sacred red dickies. LOL.
Yea emo bout breaking when you're supposed to be studying. Heh you're fucked...
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